This Thing That I Do

Isaiah 20:10 (NLT)  “In that day the remnant of Israel, the survivors of Jacob, will no longer depend on allies who seek to destroy them but will faithfully trust the Lord, the Holy One of Israel”

Psalm 63:9  “But those who seek to destroy my life shall go down into the depths of the earth”

As I seek guidance from the Lord, asking him to search me and expose that which is not pleasing to Him, I hear him say, “What substance, habit, behavior or thought pattern are you still clinging to under the illusion that it is helping you, when in reality, it seeks to destroy you?” It is quite shocking to consider things from this angle – that I am still clinging to something that seeks to destroy me!  The thought of settling for a counterfeit version of security, comfort and value stir me up in a very interesting way.  I find myself angry that I am still being deceived (holding onto behaviors that are only an illusion of the real thing), AND loved (painfully aware of how much God loves me and wants me to have the real thing – Him!)  He reminds me that:

•He is the solution to my needs for security and comfort
•He is the solution for my true sense of worthiness
•He is the solution to my pain and the source of all healingimage

So with great trepidation, fear and anticipation, I dig a little deeper and discover a masterfully disguised protective allianceof self-reliance still residing within myself that fools me into thinking that it is the solution to my comfort, security and value.

Once again, I confess, repent and surrender my will to his holy plan for my life and in that moment (or moments) of surrender, I rest in perfect peace, knowing that I am absolutely loved, valued and protected by the only real solution – Jesus Christ!

Laura Pelechek, Staff Therapist

Laura Pelechek, Staff Therapist