Change. It’s a word I often feel I have to pretend to love when in reality I am actually not very fond of it. Routine, now that’s a something I can really feel safe with…isn’t it? Every morning I wake up early so that I can sit and have a cup of coffee in peace and quiet. After I am sufficiently awake enough, I open God’s word and pour over the text looking for what I am to learn from Him today. I spend time each morning in prayer releasing my own thoughts and desires to His. After that my husband Joe and I talk about what is going on in our lives and the lives of our family. It’s our time to check in with each other. This entire routine can take up to 2 hours each day. It is a good routine. I am comfortable with it, I grow within it, I am thankful for it. It’s not the routine itself that is the problem. The problem arises when I feel in control of that routine. When I dictate when and how I start each day. When I decide that I NEED my routine to begin a day or to grow in Christ. When I in effect say to God, don’t change what isn’t broken. I mean, I don’t come right out and say that to His face, I am much more subtle about it. I justify why I need to stay in my comfort zone. My day doesn’t run smoothly if I don’t have my morning routine, it’s when I hear from GOD, I am old now so I have to start my day out slowly, I have to have quiet time. These justifications all have one thing in common. It’s all about me. Ouch. That hurts.
Once again I look to Christ for grace. The grace He provides in abundance. Jesus Christ is the same yesterday and today and forever. (Hebrews 13:8) Jesus IS my comfort zone. He is unchanging! Because I find my “ok-ness” in the One who does not change, I don’t have to fear it, I can even embrace it, or pursue it! Pursuing change. What does that even look like? My daily morning routine will stay the same for now… until it changes. He is the one who determines when and where changes happen in my life. Help me live a life where I do not miss the opportunity to pursue change. Give me eyes to see that way Jesus sees.
I look closely at my perception of change as I prepare for the youngest out of 5 to leave my home. After 30 years of raising children, my youngest son, Luke is off to college. Yikes, talk about change! Am I ready for such an intricate part of my daily life to shift? No more late night visits with my son, no more always knowing where he is and what he’s doing. My heart races at even the thought of these changes! I have loved the routine of being a mother with children at home, it has brought me such great joy. I might even say it has been a part of my identity. Ok, I’ll just say it. It HAS been a part of my identity. Now what? As my role and routine changes I look to my comfort zone of Jesus. I will not be alone in change. He is right there with me. He calls me to follow Him. He asks me to cling to Him during this time. This is my plan of action for change: cling to Christ and celebrate changes. Will you join me in celebrating change? The ministry at House of Hope seems to have changed a lot over the years. What started as a house full of women with a very scheduled routine has turned into a house full of people meeting for classes and therapy. We still have women living at the house, but there are now 3-4 women at a time. They work part-time or full time. They participate in therapy and classes in a way that complements their schedules. There is no daily schedule set for them. I am thankful the community of House of Hope not only embraces change but pursues it when God calls them to. Change is a part of the culture. We have been ready to take the plunge into change! I praise God for the work He has accomplishes in the lives of women and their families.