Powerful, life giving words:
I don’t want you to worry. I am on your side. I will be your ally and I have the power to protect you.
Powerful, life giving words. Has anyone ever said those words to me before? Do I dare trust those words? I so want to. I SO want to.
Five days before the anniversary of my mother’s death and she is constantly on my mind. How I loved her, yet our relationship was so complicated. Did she ever say those words to me? Did she ever, even once, step in and say “Enough – do not hit her anymore, use kind words towards her, treat her with love, your anger is not her fault…” I know now that she lived with the regret of not. Not standing up for me. Not stopping the violence directed toward me. Not showing me the love that I needed.
I had forgotten how my heart longed to hear those words from her. How I longed to be able to trust her to protect me, to be on my side, to be my ally. That heart hurt would never go away – until today. Today a dear friend took my side, protected my interests.
This is one of my recent journal entries. I was blessed that day to have a friend support me by verbally standing beside me. Wouldn’t it be great if we could experience this type of support every day? Thankfully, we have a God that does just that.
You hem me in behind and before, and you lay your hand upon me. Psalm 139:5
Our Protector is not limited by circumstances. Even in the midst of the most difficult times, he is our ally. He is on our side. Even more than that, he goes before us – wraps his strength around us – firmly stands behind us. What freedom that brings! Our Lord and Savior is right here saying to us – don’t worry, I’m on your side. I am your ally and I have the power to heal your heart hurts. Bring them to me, lay them at my feet, and surrender them. Do we trust his words? DO we?
On that day God sent a friend to speak his words to me, words that my mother wished she could have said. Allow him to hem you in, to place his hand upon you. Allow him to heal your heart hurts.